‘All of Me’ is my day 2 song for The Haykel Twins 7 day song challenge!

Picture of Laura Aiisha Haykel by Cheryl Gorski

October 2013

Here is my song for day 2 of The Haykel Twins 7 day song challenge!

Click here to listen to my song ‘All of Me.’

This song came through me today because of a reaction that I had towards my Mom from a triggered place.

I noticed that I was feeling ‘bad’ about it and having trouble forgiving myself for reacting the way that I did.

I’m always curious about when I or others feel ‘bad’ about something.. it feels so old, it feels abusive and it seems to create a block to self love and forgiveness.

I was able to take responsibility for my actions, speak about the part that triggered me the most (which taps into a very old and outdated belief about not being important or cared for by others) and we, as a family, were able to create a space of love around it fairly quickly.

Then, as I was recording this song later in the evening, my teenage daughter was trying to sleep and called me towards the end of the recording to ask me to stop singing… guess what happened?! I felt ‘bad’ again.. So I sat with that for a few minutes, reminded myself of the love inside and all around me, and allowed myself to feel tender about everything that was triggered by this experience.

What do you do when you notice that you’re feeling ‘bad’ about something?

How do you take responsibility and claim your power in the midst of this type of energy or experience?

Please let me know in the comments below!

And again.. you can listen to ‘All of Me’ by clicking here!

Giving sooo much thanks for the opportunity to share with you here! And… I cannot WAIT to share my first ever solo recording project with you this spring! I’m currently working on a 6 song EP and it’s massive!!! *Stay tuned*

Bless & Empower,

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