You know that icky yucky completely uncomfortable feeling you get when you’ve said something or done something out of alignment with your truest self? When you’ve stepped outside of yourself and feel shameful about the effect it had on yourself and/or others? When you’ve done something that you want to hide from to get away from the experience of it all… feeling that pang in your chest or gut, and at the same time you are running that experience through your mind over and over again rationalizing it, trying to make it better?
I’ve done many things in my life that have brought about this experience, as I’ve always had a habit of putting myself out there in plain sight for all to see.. the most vulnerable me! Wearing my heart on my sleeve or allowing the rebel in me to show her face powerfully. I have been quick with my tongue at times and am learning to pause BEFORE I speak.. to make sure that whatever is about to come out of my mouth is something I really want or need to say.. and also to be mindful of HOW I am saying it and whether it’s coming from a triggered place or a grounded expansive mature place within me.
I realize that when I have an experience like this there is a gem hidden within, an ‘Aha’ moment or an awakening buried underneath the deep discomfort that arises. I am realizing that it is much more worthwhile to allow the discomfort to be there, to stop running the tape over and over again, and to allow whatever is desiring to be seen, heard and felt to actually be seen heard and felt. It’s soooo simple!!!
Experiences that cause deep discomfort are yet another opportunity for us to go inside, breathe deeply and allow whatever layer of shit that is ready and willing to be cleared and released to clear fully. Engaging in this process will create space for the new goodness available to us to come in, plant seeds and grow. We can do this by allowing the feelings to be fully present and to face and have loving compassion for the most undesirable parts of ourselves. By loving these parts of ourselves fully and wholly we lay the foundation for a completely new expansive and wonderful life experience!
What do you do when you’ve got the embarrassment bug? How do you face it, feel it and clear it to create space for the new goodness awaiting you?
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